Surgery Date!

Earlier this week I had a revelation. If my white blood cell count is good all by itself (which I'm told that it is), why wait to have my final surgery? Who cares if I miss something I had planned? Who cares if the surgery isn't planned weeks in advance? Who am I doing this for? I need to do this for me, and I need to do it soon! I called the reconstructive surgeon's office and asked when they could do the surgery. Well, tomorrow is my pre-op appointment, and next Tuesday (April 13th) is my surgery date! Yay for implants! The sooner these tissue expanders are out the better! I'm hoping the recovery from this surgery is as easy as everyone makes it sound, guess we'll see very soon, but even if it's not and it takes me a while to bounce back that's ok. As long as I can go to the beach this summer, I'm good.
I'm also very excited he'll be taking out my port at the same time. The sooner all cancer related paraphernalia is out of my body, the better. Maybe that will help me to relax and breathe easier about the future. I'm having a really difficult time with that. No, for real, I think I need meds.

Speaking of meds, the Tamoxifen has been in my system for a week now and the hot flashes are in FULL effect. Good times.