Emotional Wreck

I tried to tell myself I knew this would happen and it's no big deal, but it is...it IS! When you're a girl and you lose your hair, it's devastating.
I can't explain the emotions, they just are. No matter how many people tell you "you're beautiful with or without hair" and "It'll come back, just own it" and all kinds of other wonderfully sweet, supportive things, it's something that can't be put into words. Well, not for me anyway. I have been so ill all day today, and just really emotional and sad. I really think it's because I have lost 90% of my hair in 5 days. I have started wearing a wig, but I feel like everyone is staring at me and can just tell it's not my real hair. The wigs are itchy, and my scalp is tender...hopefully these things won't be so bad once the rest of my hair is gone, but it's just not comfortable. I spend all the time I'm away from home counting the minutes until I can be back home and put a scarf or something on my head & get the stupid wig off! Then when I put a scarf on I feel like a big cancer billboard. Don't walk by a mirror because there's cancer, staring you in the face. All the time. It's been the hardest part of the whole thing for me so far. Not the most physically painful, or the most scary, but more emotionally taxing, that's for sure. I wish I could describe it better, but it just sucks...big time. The End.