I'm tired of being in pain.
I'm tired of being uncomfortable and not being able to lay in my own bed.
I'm tired of not being able to drive.
I'm tired of not being able to hug or hold my child.
I'm tired of not being able to run and play hide and seek just because she wants to.
I'm tired of wincing every time my husband goes to hug me because I'm afraid he'll hurt me.
I'm tired of not being able to do my job like I need to. I know they are ok with it, but I'm not ok with it.
Most of all I'm tired of hurting. Some days I'm ok, and some days I just hurt all over.
This is stupid, and I know it's normal to have good days and bad. I also know that millions of people have it worse than me, and I need to suck it up, sometimes I just don't want to though, and I just wanted to put my bad day out there.
I'll be all better tomorrow, after I have a little dinner, sit in my forever spot on the couch and stay there throughout the night attempting to sleep sitting up because it hurts so freakin' bad to lay down. Yeah, tomorrow will be fine.
Sorry for the downer, just needed a little written therapy.
2 comments:
Stacie,
If anyone has a right to vent, it's you my dear. Through this whole process, you have shown us all that you are nothing but a strong, intelligent and brave young woman. It's OK to vent. In your case, A LOT! So if you ever just want to pull up your email and write a venting message to me, send it my way! I'll be here to listen (or read). Hang in there, sweetie. You are doing awesome so far and there are no need for apologies for anything...especially a venting blog posting!
Thank you Allyson! I just have some really bad days, but then some really good ones that make up for it. I appreciate you, and thanks for the encouragement! It helps more than you know:)
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